Dear twenty-year-old me
Sometimes I look back over my life and I wonder “How did I get here?” Some of it is good choices, some God ordained and some maybe just dumb luck.
Delight in your naïve nature as you step into adulthood, it will serve you well. Your innocence – you rule follower you – has led to rejection. I know it hurts. God allowed it for your own protection. Soon you will meet someone who will threaten that innocence. You will learn so much from that relationship. The most important lesson is don’t settle. It is better to be alone than to be with just anyone. Trust me waiting for a good partner in life is worth it.
Fear is not your friend. It has been your constant companion but it doesn’t have to be. You know Jesus? He can drive out fear and His mighty love delivers comfort in the darkest of nights. It conquers this whispering fiend with one blow. Jesus’ death on the cross smashed fear and His resurrection replaced it with new life through His love. His perfect love drives out fear. (1 John 4:18) Honestly, fear will never leave you alone. Anxiety will always try to creep in. Just be on your guard and battle it. Through Jesus you have the tools. YOU WILL WIN. Jesus guarantees the victory.
Your true self is good enough. Woven together with gifts and flaws, work to impact the world around you, as each person is meant to do. Far from perfect, your goal is wholeness of mind, body, and spirit. Look around you, see where God is working and join Him.
Throughout your life some dreams will not come true. Yes, you will experience hardships, but you will also experience beauty beyond your imagination. I’m not going to tell you the details because it will probably freak you out. Just know your future is really, really good.
Learn to talk to God. Lean on Him when life is difficult and when it is good. You can trust Him. He really will do great things in your life. Not because you are special but because He is so good. He will be with you every step of the way. He will be there for you in loss and in love. He is faithful.
You will learn to be brave. It is the greatest victory you will participate in. Trust God to move mountains. Tell your friends, God will do it through them as well. He is the God of the impossible.
You are dearly loved, called to Him, and sent to do so much more than you can imagine. Believe in yourself, your whole self. Give the Holy Spirit room for His fruit to grow and erupt from your pours. Be kind, smile often, lend a helping hand, and know that gentleness breaks down walls. These are your strengths.
Knowledge may open a few doors, but integrity will allow you to stay in the room. Strive to be honest, honor others even when they don’t honor you. Quiet fortitude will break down barriers you thought were impenetrable.
I hope this helps. Life is rich and beautiful; embrace it flaws and all.
With much love,