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on Monday, 15 June 2015. Posted in Blog

Learn to surrender and Go

surrender and go

Begging God to tell me His will, I pleaded, “Am I on the right track? Am I following your lead? Show me, make it clear. HELP!” Fear encompassed me, even as I took the next step.

Yep. There I was, rattled by fear and worry. I was so self-focused, I couldn’t hear God. Even when He spoke loud and clear, I heard nothing. What was wrong with me?

Then came this sermon I heard recently, “Do you want to do God’s will?” My ears picked up. Yes! Yes, that is me! My Pastor then said “Say yes before you know where He’s sending you.” Of course, there was the answer. Wait, what? “Once you say yes, then He will tell you the direction.”

Genesis 12 gives us the account of Abram (soon to be Abraham). Genesis 12:1 states, The Lord had said to Abram, “Leave your native country, your relatives, and your father’s family, and go to the land that I will show you.” God told Abram to go, but He didn’t say where. Backwards to so much of what we learn in the world. Figure it out, cast a vision, know where you are going, and finally initiate the project. In God’s Kingdom, we are to surrender first, say we will go, and get direction last.

I sat there stunned. I didn’t think God was speaking. Had I been traveling on my own agenda? Suddenly, I flashed back to a quiet prayer service years before. I saw myself pray the end of Isaiah 6:8 “Here I am Lord, send me.”

HEY! I had said yes. Way before I led Bible Study, way before I led the church's Women’s Ministry, even way before Dragonfly. Way before I wrote anything for anybody to read, I said yes. It was so long ago, I didn’t see the connection. Now I realize that night was the beginning of the journey to where I am now.

God, forgive me for worrying, fretting, and fearing; YOU are directing my path, because I asked. I still give Him the day as I wake up more confident that continuing on this Dragonfly journey is HIS plan.

This is not a new lesson. I knew this, but what I didn’t recognize was I wasn’t living it. I had doubted when I needed to trust God with my whole heart. Often we need a reminder of old lessons in order to more fully implement them into our current lives.

How about you? Do you ever wonder where you are going? Are you on the right track? Today is the day to get started. Simply say yes to God. He, in turn, will tell you which direction to go.

Comments (3)

  • Heidi


    16 June 2015 at 00:42 |
    AWESOME! I'm in tears because I can relate so very well to this! Trusting Him, stepping out, wondering if I did it right, then worry and fear set in like a dense fog opressing any ounce of joy. Then, His Spirit speaks, reminding me of my prayers, of His words and the Truth burns away the fog. Thank you Leslie! God speaks through you into my heart! ❤
  • Leslie


    16 June 2015 at 01:06 |
    Thanks Heidi! I'm so glad it encouraged you.
  • Jenny


    10 October 2017 at 13:08 |
    So raw! Yes, I have been relearning what the Lord taught me years ago. I love that you speak of being reminded of trusting God with your whole heart. I have been reminded of the same thing recently. Ultimately I my respond to God is 'can you be trusted?' I know the answer. But I am challenged to live it. Thank you Leslie for vulnerbility..